march passed by in a flash! oh my goodness it was seriously such a crazy month so many things happened!! most of it was just stuff happening Around Me rather than To Me but still! it was really hectic... i just had a fashion photoshoot for my designs (which im so excited to show u guys hehe) and participated in a rather eventful science fair. also, ivy day was yesterday and i had the privilege of hearing all about my seniors' crazy acceptances... makes me really think about what my future is going to look like.
oh this is so shameful to write but i gave up on the artist's way 12 week program... oops... i couldn't find a good way to fit it into my schedule and i guess i was struggling to see how it translated into tangible change in my creative process. i do appreciate the exercises though and i hope to pick it up again when i'm ready.
i've been feeling pretty good though! i'm back in my productive era and i've also been enjoying myself outside of work lots. i just met up with my friends yesterday to study and also went for a friend's birthday party last week Wowowowow i genuinely love catching up and spending time with people. i have some hangouts planned for next week as well yippee!
i took a professional personality test recently and got scored pretty high on trust and compassion, which kind of surprised me. to be honest if i took the same test 2 years ago, the metrics would probably look very different. i think this change came with me trying to be a better/kinder person to both myself and others lol but idk is it a good thing? eh i'm not sure... things always crop up that make me realise that this level of trust is often unwarranted and i shouldn't expect so much from people. even so, i'm generally okay with viewing people like this because i'd rather give benefit of doubt and be proven wrong (which would be their fault) than make bad assumptions (which would be my fault). ok lowkey i also don't really care because nobody has wronged me in any of these situations and they mostly just involve me judging their character but i gotta be less naive and find a good balance between giving benefit of doubt and listening to my intuitions. also i've been thinking about how to find a balance between being confrontational and non-confrontational. i never know when it's good to stand up for myself vs just let it go. Sigh
sorry i feel like today's entry is kinda all over the place i'm feeling a lil incoherent lol but life has been treating me decently and i hope it has for you too xx
- j